the same

I had a really hard time writing this post. I rewrote it six times. Normally I have no problem writing out my thoughts, but for some reason this time was especially difficult. All I really want to say is what should I do? See I have these two choices. Should I go to Bible School in England for 3 months? or should I go to College at Kennesaw in January? I’ve been going back and forth for the past two weeks. I think the reason why I had such a hard time writing this was because I’m afraid that I might get an answer. As long as I’m undecided, my choices can remain exciting and ambiguous (I like that word). As soon as I decide thats when things get scary. Because there are so many things that could go wrong. What if I dont make friends? What if nobody likes me? What if I make the wrong choice and then I miss out on doing something I was supposed to do or meeting someone I was supposed to meet? I can’t help but feel like this decision is going to determine how the rest of my life turns out. I’m probably just being dramatic, but maybe not. I know I need to do what God wants, but all he’s told me is that I need to make a change. See this whole semester has been filled with highs and lows… mostly lows, but more than anything its just been filled with the same. I’m tired of the same. I’m tired of being comfortable. I’m ready for new and different. I just need to figure out what new and different means.

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