I wrote this more than a year ago, but when I rediscovered it today, it was exactly what I needed to hear.
People are more important than places and sometimes you realize that “the dream,” the calling, isn’t wild adventures. It’s loving fully and completely and being loved in return. It’s finding people whose hearts beat to the same rhythm as your own. It’s living a life of freedom that teaches others how to be free themselves. The calling is learning when to say yes and when to say no, when to change, when to turn around, when to move, when to be still. The calling is to be truly alive in who you are, because that is the only way you can breathe life into someone else.
Sometimes the calling will lead you back to where you started, but that doesn’t mean you didn’t change.
And sometimes the calling will lead you to a place you didn’t want or expect, but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong. It doesn’t mean you won’t love it. It means you finally learned how to listen to the voice that does the calling. You were still, and you heard, and the words rattled around in your brain and seeped down into your bones and your bloodstream. By the time it reached your heart you were ready, at least as ready as you could be. The calling broke your heart and you let it, and now you will follow it and watch it make you whole again.